let us say HAA together

2011-03-13T18:05:00.006+08:00

I placed this picture in a frame, and behind the picture, I wrote to him: I love love love your forward looking gaze which is so full of hope, and how contented and blissful i look in your arms.

When someone you love is unwell, even seeing him having undisturbed good sleep for one night makes you smile from ear to ear.

He said today: We have a bright future ahead!
I said: Yes, of course!
((:

And then, thank you for all who have given us so much love.
You know who you are, obviously! (:
xoxo
from the bottomest of our hearts!

2010-11-04T11:06:00.001+08:00

Everything seems to have acquired a tinge of grey.

Sometimes, love makes you stronger.
Sometimes, love also makes you weaker.

It's hard to keep those wild thoughts from running wilder,
but I will always try!

pom poms and warm milk

2010-09-29T21:33:00.004+08:00

so many pretty DIY ideas for the wedding.
i just wonder if I will procrastinate
till the wedding is over.

fabric pom poms.
they look so whimsical!

i love these tulle pom poms with rhinestones too!!
so lovely airy like you are in a dream.
they seem not too difficult to make,
so i am quite determined to have them (:

(both from www.oncewed.com)

yesterday morning i woke up at the htb's place.
he asked me if i want cold or warm milk
for breakfast. i said cold out of convenience.
when i went to the dining table,
there was a cup of warm milk waiting(:
i was smiling to myself the entire day.

离岛

2010-09-12T09:17:00.003+08:00

离岛田馥甄

怎么会这样我也不知道谢谢谁为我祈祷可是我并不困扰
不担心我这岛居民太少来过的朋友们都住下了

我是座小小岛容易满足的小岛懂得人懂得就好
我是座小小岛心满意足的小岛我爱的人爱我就好

mid july

2010-07-14T23:46:00.007+08:00

the sweetest one,

waited for me from 1030pm to 1215am, with a bouquet and meiji choc milk

said i should get hot chocolate home to feel better since we don't go back to the same home

tells me i am missed even when i am just right beside

(:

hello july

2010-07-04T15:04:00.002+08:00

mid point of 2010.
the year has been good so far.
by good, i mean there are memories to keep.
by good, i mean there have been changes.
I always fear looking back and realizing that I am still standing stranded at the same cross road.
it's nice to be embarking on something.

"不能原谅，如果很多年后我还是这样"

dear everyone, stay safe healthy and happy.

black or white

2010-06-27T12:53:00.002+08:00

black or white? can i have black and white pls?
also, when is my SR dream coming?
it's good to always have an end in mind. i have never been this focused on something and i hope it really does happen!
But nonetheless, life has been good enough (:

我最近都在听

2010-05-05T10:48:00.005+08:00

刘若英的“我们没有在一起”

可是啊只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

我们没有在一起

how to?

2010-04-25T20:44:00.004+08:00

when we are at a loss, can there be someone who can tell us definitively what to do so there will be no regrets?
how do we live in the moment and be a responsible 29 yr old adult at the same time. How???

hello world

2010-04-25T20:20:00.005+08:00

hello loves.
soon we will say bye bye to april and hello to may.
hello may!
hello mayday!

at 29, i miss feeling like 19.
at 29, there are so many good old days to reminisce.
at 29, i thought i will be a good decision maker,
but i realized that i am not.
at 29, things are complicated, nothing is sane.
at 29, you only want to spend time with people
who are worthwhile.

at 29, you sing 后青春期的诗

当烟雾随晨光飘散枕畔的湖已风乾　　
期待已退化成等待而我告别了突然　　
当泪痕勾勒成遗憾回忆夸饰著伤感
逝水比喻时光荏苒终於我们不再为了生命狂欢　为爱情狂乱　　
然而青春彼岸　盛夏正要一天一天一天的灿烂　　　　
　　　
谁说不能让我　此生唯一自传　如同诗一般　　
无论多远未来　读来依然一字一句一篇都灿烂　　

让天空解释著蔚蓝　浮云定义著洁白　　
落花铺陈一片红色地毯　
迎接我们到未来　
精彩未完的未来

然后呢一起走吧 dearest friends (:

post xmas

2009-12-27T09:59:00.003+08:00

after two and a half days of spending time
like I have all the time in the world,
today I am back here again.
working on sunday really kills me.
especially when there isn’t much to do.
there can’t be a better way to make your employees
hate the company and the job than this.

anyway, merry christmas to everyone i love!
i had a good time making merry with all you good people
now...what do we look forward to next?

to: me

2009-11-28T21:37:00.005+08:00

late, but it's perfectly okay!

thank you me, for the gift
you're most welcome, me!
so long you are happy (:

to: tsj / mdc

2009-11-28T21:30:00.004+08:00

thank you sistaz...
you gals are the best!
and we had the indispensible
blissful strawberry cake

and these photos are all so not fb
or anywhere else worthy
so they are here
haha

hearts

to: daf jul ls ph

2009-11-28T21:21:00.003+08:00

thanks for all the clothes
i love them!!
obviously...since i picked them
haha
love you old pals!

thank you esp to daf and ls
you gave me the blissful cake too
i have so much bliss

hearts

to: lala

2009-11-28T21:19:00.003+08:00

thank you lala!
you're sweeter than the card (:

we're the girls with endless hair
(and i am shooting bird again!)
haha

hearts

2009-11-26T16:40:00.005+08:00

i found this photo of jjj and i thought
this is what jjj is like.
random, child like, colourful
and happy in her own way (:

was thinking...

2009-11-17T23:08:00.005+08:00

what has time done to us
and what have people we loved done to us

time is a pick-pocket
it steals from you bit by bit
and you do not realise something is missing
until you look for it
or until you see that slit across your pocket
then you try and recall
but you can never know exactly
when it was taken away

people who left are burglars
they come at night and vacate
everything in your home
when you wake up the next morning
you are left with the empty shell of the house
and memories of what used to be in there
then you start to wonder if you could
have better prevented the burglary
and you start hating yourself
for not doing enough maybe
and you wonder how things can be there one day
and gone the next. all gone.
to where? you wonder.

----------------------------------------------

and then you do not listen to some
songs ever again

songs that tell your story
songs that were once shared
songs that were played in that home

----------------------------------------------

and joey says
but then people who get married
can still get divorced
i am this skeptical

and xq says
and finally they die

and this is what we have become

hey you

2009-11-10T23:51:00.004+08:00

stay real designer
can't believe i paid $80 for this thing
i now feel looks best as pyjamas...

but you are forgiven
forgiven for everything including not
knowing you have to add +65

i am just as happy wearing them as pyjamas
you are good designer!

bye bye shoes

2009-11-09T22:27:00.009+08:00

i love my massimo snake skin peeptoes.
i love it!
i bought it at a defective sale
the retail value was low
but it doesn't matter how others rate it
because it was love at first sight.
it is gem to me
everything i ever wanted in a pair of heels,
i thought, only that i am a 7 and it is a 6.

so i wore it.
i felt happy wearing it.
my friends think they are hot and they
think it looks damn good on me.
i love it, it makes me happy.
although it hurts me, always.

it got painful sometimes,
so i take a break from it sometimes
then i thought of expanding it, and i added
cushions, and i placed plasters on my feet
then one day i realised that a 6 is a 6
you cant change it
and 6 shoes will keep hurting 7 feet
but i still love it...

so i kept wearing it and it kept hurting me
and one day, it cut my skin
it was a deep cut and there was blood

and i started to wonder, if i will
be more comfortable bare footed

or maybe, what i need is a pair of
nice nappa loafers, in size 7
shoes that will take me anywhere and walk
with me on this long journey called life
shoes that are gentle on my feet and
can withstand the test of time

6 shoes should not hurt 7 feet
and 7 feet should not destroy 6 shoes

so tomorrow, i am going to give
my massimo to amanda.

not because i dont love it anymore
but i simply cant move forward in it
i guess it will be hard at the start
but i guess after some time, i can be
happy to see it fitting nicely on amanda
it was once my beloved companion afterall

6 shoes should belong to 6 feet.
7 feet should look for 7 shoes

lesson: some things we love may not be good for us.

the end.

2009-11-09T16:53:00.006+08:00

some people never fail to make me smile
the kind of smile that comes right from the heart
that makes me feel silly for being unhappy
it's really comforting to know that there are
things that never change. ever.

songs that we never get tired of
notes that make us raise our arms with palms outstretched
lyrics that bring us through the past in a heartbeat
faces that makes us smile, or laugh

how comforting to know that they do not change

on a seperate note,

dear friends
friends who give me flowers
friends who make a point to check on me
friends who tell me i have them and they love me
friends who watch me cry silently knowing that they do not have to say anything at all but sit with me

it's great to have you all
i m sorry that i am sometimes so wasted
i have to go missing for a while
i still cant function well at times

but you know i love you too (:

2009-11-05T23:39:00.003+08:00

it's another mindless day
i had too much coffee and tea it made me sick

didn't do much except
telling the principal that i am leaving
i have been looking forward to this moment
but it didn't bring me as much satisfaction
as i would like it to

but then
i think it is good to not feel much now

i am guessing tomorrow will be just as wet
because rain-boy will be in town
please please please stay for supper
i need to feel that life is good still

and lastly, why show consideration now
what good does it do?

damn it, now i am affected

november is here...

2009-11-02T15:25:00.003+08:00

the christmas decor seems especially
early this year
it is true that festivals can make
some people happy and some people lonely

I have a feeling this year end
will be a cold one.

but we will still have the party with the
indispensable log cake won't we?
knowing that makes me feel better (:

lately i hate mornings and weekend evenings
the times of the day when the sky changes colour
it's best that i don't notice it

but i like hearing from a dear friend
i love reading long long sms-es
because it tells me that he is well enough (:

2009-10-30T15:53:00.005+08:00

i have been looping this
i am so glad there are still songs
and i am so so so glad there are still friends

哭过就好了梁文音

不喜欢怀疑什麽并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化慢慢不同
我不是生气只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变但不能说
你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸著割舍
爱是为了拥抱为了牵手
不是为了争吵为了掉头

哭过就好了痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

2009-10-27T14:34:00.002+08:00

it's so cold today it makes
me more blue than ever.

i am just staring blankly at the monitor.
i cant work at all.

in case you think i am keeping you company,
i think it's the other way round.

and in case you think i can make you feel better,
it really is the other way round.

questions

2009-10-24T00:12:00.006+08:00

how many sad songs does it take
to heal a broken heart?
how much do we have to forsake?
how long do we have to wait?

who are we to say?
who will be here to stay?

how much more tears do we have to shed?
how much more love can we spare?

i can't stop to cry because if i do i can't stop.

this world turns all of us bi-polar
this world turns all of us into people
we don't know anymore

i want a hair cut
i want ls to get well
i want to know if i should stop and cry
i want to know if i can.

not as planned

2009-09-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

if everything in life goes according to plan, i would have boarded an eva-air flight headed for taipei yesterday, and tomorrow evening, i will be in some queue with a pile of nt notes in my hands, mindlessly buying some dna mdise that will be stashed when i get home. and now, i may be in a stay real shop trying to get the cheapest thing available and asking for more paper bags! ha.
i dont even want to start imagining what happens in the little big egg.

but then, life is hard and reality is harsh la..haha
i try not to let myself get too upset.
and it also seems rather unfitting to allow myself to be too upset when their intention is to bring joy.

and then i also remembered the lyrics in a song:
为了抢快乐搞的不快乐为什么人总那么傻呢？
it's true~!

so i try and make merry here
i placed order for dna merchandise online
and i just got the dvds converted from my tapes today!
i will indulge in them tonight!

i must say i am really getting better sleep lately, and that helps.

noise

2009-09-20T14:22:00.005+08:00

do you know of days where the world gets so so so noisy that you wish you can disapparate to your bedroom and stay there alone forever with your ipod? with your eyes closed.
this is one of those days.

parents bickering over frivoulous petty most random stuff, strangers chatting incessantly in the backgroud in various accents and languages, their unruly sweaty kids buzzing around and finally, your mobile rings and someone on the other end distrupts your off day guiltlessly.

you are not in a bad mood. you just have too many things on your mind, you need some peace to let them settle, but peace seems to be the most difficult thing.
or maybe... i am in a bad mood. but it is different from being unhappy.

i do miss all the old sodagreen songs.
i do miss sharing my earphones with someone who listens to a song as intently.

i do think that we should share our lives with a someone who can share our favourite tunes. Because the tunes are simply our lives.

i love loving one song for 10 years. i love how the same song moves me the same when I was 18 and am turning 28. i love how i forget that 10 years have passed while listening to the same song, and how it also reminds me that 10 years have passed.

I don't really know how we should feel at 28. It wouldn't be the same as 18 surely. It wouldn't even be the same as 23 or 24 or 25. How are we to feel about life and love at 28? What happens at 38 and 48 and 58 when we are already lamenting so much at 28!

ha...this is so random.
i guess sundays are meant for randoms.

........................................

charlie is not good. not good at all.
and i am such a weakling. we sat at the back of the car, charlie on my right and tears flowed uncontrollably from my left eye. i couldn't breathe yet i couldn't sniff. it will break the silence and it will give me away. (and i didn't know i have became so good at crying that i can subconsciously control which eye my tears flow from!)

anyway, you are right i am so silly.
we will all be strong and you will open your eyes and see all our smiles.

you know how much we love you.

the impending death of cds & pink like candy

2009-09-15T00:24:00.005+08:00

I switched the radio on just in time to hear 知足 being played.
oh...the original version is as beautiful as ever!

So today, i wanted to go to this cd shop at capitol. i have recently realised that many cd shops are only carrying the latest album of each artiste now. You cant imagine how hard it is to even find an album from 2007 now in most cd shops. I reckon this is an omen that cds are becoming history, and not to mention that many cd shops have gone out of business. this is worrying and sad. digital music can never be like what an album should be, because you need to autograph the cd sleeve, and the cover and the lyrics book and any other small leaflets inside, and even the case. and you need to browse and browse the lyrics book until they are yellow and have ears. so, from what i remembered, this cd shop at capitol was like an outlet shop with many old cds as i remember buying md's 1st album from there some time back. unfortunately, they have became "gramophone" xianzzz... another indication that cds are going to be phased out as a large part of the shop are movies.

good thing is i still managed to pick up a copy of 168 concert dvd.
i am recently getting very paranoid that cds are disappearing and my vcds will not last, so the big plan is to get a dvd version of anything.

and i picked up a holga camera at peninsula!
decided on the pink one over the red/white finally as pink is ultimately still...my colour. haha.
and just for the record, i will have a matching stay real strap for either one.

now i will wait for the VHS conversion man to pick up my tapes to convert them into reliable long lasting dvds, and we shall have an old school party watching recordings from 10 yrs ago, munching on big round coloured biscuits with crumbs that drop all over the floor, playing with old maid and donkey cards with ears, and taking pictures on film, and scrolling the knob after every shot.

you know for sure that you are aging when you start loving old stuff and fretting about losing them.
and planning old school parties.
haha.

spick and span

2009-09-13T17:35:00.008+08:00

so...
i had wanted to move to another blog site and ditch this one as it got kind of gloomy and sulky.
And dusty.

But then again, isn't it just like life?
Can you ever restart life, can you ever disregard your past? well...NO.

So what i think I should do is some housekeeping and hide the recent unhappy posts and embrace the rest that are left behind.
Negative thoughts and unhappy memories are so heavy i just cant seem to move forward with them. So I am going to learn to unload them piece by piece, and hide them in some dark corners of the house and cracks in the walls. That way, they can never haunt me in one complete piece again. ha! Serves the grey shit right!!

I want to give this place a facelift when I have more time and am less tired and addicted to bejeweled.
This shall be part and parcel of my new happiness project which i am embarking on from...let's say today!

I want to try and I want to try to succeed.
Be happy, and be good to myself.
I realised that if I tell myself this more often, I have much higher chances of remebering it and practising it.

oh but, to wyt.aqdmy: though the posts have been hidden, I will not forget what you wrote. and so, this is back to you:

常常我闭上眼睛听到了海的呼吸是你
温柔的蓝色潮汐告诉我没有关系
(: (: (:

and to end...
at the end of 笑忘歌's mtv, it was said that:
只有自己能还自己快乐
we never stop learning from them, do we?

2009-01-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

Though cliched, but I must say "how time flies!"
Of course I welcome 2009 since the new year
always brings new hopes.
But the pessimist in me tells me "bo bao".
haha...yes, no promises, but we stay hopeful still!

And so I quote lala, who wished for the year to be
filled with love, laughter and lovelies.
And my own version, with happiness, hope and honey!

2008 made a teary and tired me.
And left me with a weary heart and irreparable dark eye rings.

But I thank the ones who gave me a good closure at the last minute.
Girls who stood with me under the fireworks in the cold,
and boy who placed a shiny halo through my finger.
And a good dinner with lala at strippies cafe.

And I also thank those who gave me a good start.
Talking to PH on the phone, and party at LS's
place with the DHS folks and their spouses.

And so all I can say is that the festive period is the only time
cliches can be condoned! Cliched wishes, cliched activities,
cliched emotions. But don't they all make us hopeful and happy?

I am now waiting for the dark cloud above my head to
rain on me. And then, the rainbow appears over my head.
And all will be as good as the past.

I love all of you.
And I wish everyone a best year ever in 2009.

2008 末

2008-12-04T01:00:00.003+08:00

我差点就忘了这里的网址不奇怪
我最近经常忘了很多事。

2008年的确是很差的一年印象中最差的一年
我甚至希望它在我的记忆中会是空白的
空白就好了空白会比较好的
可能这就是健忘的原因

有些人碰到不悦的事时
会告诉全世界会告诉任何想听或不想听的人

有些人
会告诉自己信得过，亲近的人

而有些人
不会告诉任何人

我惊觉我再也回不去了
已经尝试了这么久
我都快不记得以前的模样了
这种感觉让人很害怕未来
让人不喜欢自己

虽然如此。。。

我在上个月过的生日
还是谢谢你们温暖了我。

Happiness in a box

2008-10-26T03:06:00.007+08:00

Happiness can be packed in a little brown box.
It got past the customs and the non suspecting
postman delivered it to my home.

Ta-daa! Packed cautiously in bubble wrap.
Happiness is indeed fragile!

Piping hot happiness! Yay!

在此刻重新開始活著

2008-10-20T23:17:00.005+08:00

jjj...给你的。
根本就是写给你的嘛。
听好了。
他说的话，你敢不听从吗？
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

人群中哭著你只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢或痛或心動了
你已經決定了你已經決定了
你靜靜忍著緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜就是越傷人了
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深淺淺的刀割

你不是真正的快樂你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼這

世界笑了於是妳合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則不是你的選擇
於是妳含著眼淚飄飄盪盪跌跌撞撞的走著

你不是真正的快樂你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了然後才後悔著

你值得真正的快樂你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻
重新開始活著

2008-10-11T12:03:00.003+08:00

All I can say is it takes a real lot of sensibility to stay clear headed in the face of such a huge temptation. All in the midst of this damned burgeoning worldwide recession that makes people fret about any possible risk. All people except for the bum in my house who's lost in her own maple tree world with no recession.
It is about a favourite activity in a favourite place with two favourite groups of people, all ganged up against conscience, reputation, responsibility and many uncertainties.
Fark! This is all so brain wrecking.
Someone give me a compelling reason!
Personally, "for the sake of my happiness" is compelling enough. But definitely too far fetched for any weak minded faint hearted stereotyping civilian.
So, I am stuck. And I wish I can just quit my job.
But let’s just see how far and senseless this obsession can make me go.
I want to know too.

I got a new bedside drawer

2008-09-07T17:50:00.005+08:00

from Ikea as-is today. But it was too wide!
Shame on me for my poor estimation, and bless my
mum for being such a genius to make things right!
She had it fixed with 2 planks placed underneath to hold
the weight. Now I have more storage space and a small
workdesk where I can place my laptop. Nice!

And it gave me a good reason to tidy up my room and
clear some clutter, which is good because when I saw all the
brand new items that I can now throw away with no or little
hesitation, I know I had been far too reckless with my money!

And I really am lost about what to do with all my sanrio
possessions! Shit! Now I know it was SO DUMB of me
to think my daughter could inherit all of them because I
obviously did not become a mother quick enough and all
the items are now yellow or mouldy!

And god knows why I need so many pouches and notebooks!

Anyway, getting rid of unwanted things is pretty therapeutic.
It is somehow akin to clearing my mind and soul, although
not in a big way, but it did make me feel slightly more
clear headed.

2008-09-02T00:22:00.008+08:00

Someone out there dislikes me very much.
Or should I say, hates me.
I know I can’t expect much since I am bad mouthing and scrutinizing people all the time myself. I know there is this thing called karma in this world. But honestly, I never really disliked the people I bad mouthed about, I only found them distasteful at most.

How do you hate people when you barely talked to them, when you do not know about their backgrounds, their thoughts, their rationales for doing things? How do you hate someone so easily and groundlessly?

Someone at work hates me. She hates me so much that she tells her lunch clique about it and one of them told me in my face: 她最讨厌就是你了！That was fine for me, since she is so insignificant in my life that I don’t give a damn about how she feels about me. Just fark off and leave me alone and hate me for all she wants for all I care. I mean it.

But today, I found out that she sneakily went to one of my shops, and asked one of my staff if I had been visiting the shop frequently and how long did I stay at the shop each time? This dodgy vixen. Vicious and scheming and unscrupulous and despicable, and obviously too free at work.

Who does she think she is? First of all, she is not my superior, we are of equal rank. Secondly, there is no overlap in our job scope, so to say, no common interests, no conflict of interest. Whatever whoever gave her that fat audacity to check on me?? To so hideously question my staff about me?

The vixen, wrinkled and saggy and so close to her expiry date with the company. Single and grouchy and grudging. We all know that. We all had our fair share of shit from her from time to time. She is two seats away from me, and I dare say I greet her in the morning and say goodbye to her with my heartfelt sincerity everytime I walked past, on the account that she existed at least 30 more years than me in this world and empathizing that she is single and lonely and hence twisted. I sensed no hostility, now I know it's because she is just so pretentious.

As much as I do not want to give a damn about her childish acts, I can’t take it lying down that she interfered in my work. She actually checked on me! With an evil intention that I have no doubts about. I can’t help but feel and hate that I am being watched. I can’t help but feel wronged in the sense that she hated me before she even understood me. It makes me shudder when I think about how vulnerable mankind is to insensible jealously and self conjured injustice.

I found out that she hates me because I never got any scolding at work (yea, she thinks!), because I seem to be favored. Because to her, I am this young bitch whose life seems to her like a bed of roses, getting what I want with zero hard work in a much shorter time than what she had used, which is JUST NOT FAIR. Because I have fewer lines on my face and no sagging cheeks and more years ahead to waste and she is almost seeing her end. But what does she know? What does anyone know about my this smooth sailing life?
Nothing.
This is so unbearable.

wtf!

2008-08-16T23:08:00.006+08:00

Pardon me, but what the fark!!!
What is the farking problem here with some people?

It seems their level of IQ and EQ are indeed equally atrocious. I mean, fine that IQ level is more or less determined at birth; I shall not blame anyone for that. But if you are not intelligent already, PLEASE for goodness sake, cultivate some EQ, And if you don't have both, then please at least have the consciousness to keep your blardy mouth shut so that we don't have to know about your inability. We don’t want to know!

But, by right, if you have no ability, I am sure you have loads of experience from at the very least 15yrs in the SAME position. But no, it seems that you also get no advantage from familiarity. How sad is that!

And lastly, if you will die not showing your inability, then please have the sanity not to leave evidence behind. Do not put down, in black and white, in an email, your childish, unprofessional spiteful thoughts. Thoughts that are only worthy to be converted to mindless gossips to fill up your tea break sessions with the others more or less like you. You are always welcome to talk to me through the telephone or face to face, or any other way that will not leave a trace after the words are let out into the air.

But, but, but, you had the cheek to send them to me in an email, and hence, I will, with no hesitation forward your stupidity to your bosses and mine, and blow up the matter, for all i care.

Well, actually i do care, i do care about maintaining my "nice sweet harmless girl" image, about maintaining good relationships with every single person as much as i can. But i guess you pushed your luck too far this time, and there has to be a breaking point to keep off potential troublemakers or bully wannabes from crossing my path. I just need to let all know that the harmless girl is not to be trifled with although she is oh so sweet and non confrontational always.

I do not like doing this, and it does give me some discomfort honestly. But human beings just have a way to force out the worst side of their fellow human beings.

Damned.
Well so, the bottom line is, you pissed me off.
Yes, you did.

This post is so detrimental to the mood of my
blog now by the way.

咿呀呀

2008-08-13T23:10:00.006+08:00

我觉得心里装着很多爱的人都很迷人
很爱爸爸妈妈的人，很爱老婆孩子的人
很爱朋友或是一个很特别的她/他的人
很爱其他人类的人
我都觉得他们很迷人

那些孩子唱给妈妈的歌
那些爸爸写给孩子的歌
唱的人写的人那歌声那歌词
都很动人

如果人因梦想而伟大
梦想是因爱而伟大而不那么遥远

这样的爱。。。
在旁观者的眼里
一点都不嫌太肉麻

open! & that moment...

2008-08-11T22:48:00.003+08:00

Lala brought back many open-chan for me from Taipei!
Yippee! And she loves Taipei too!
Thanks Lala!!

And Soda concert DVD is out! It is so freaking expensive!
But I know it's all going to be worthwhile. And I know it is going to move me to my last drop of tear for sure. After this post I am going to grab the tissue box, switch off all the lights and indulge.

I also know that I will be putting down "missing Soda concert at Taipei Arena on 3 Nov 2007" into my regrets-of-a-lifetime notebook.
Right after "Missing MD 168 concert on 28 August 1999"

陈爱酒

2008-08-04T23:49:00.005+08:00

我果然是来“酒”不拒的陈爱酒
陈爱酒的第一人生指导原则就是：只要是免费的酒，就不能拒绝！
所以，这一杯是“福”不是祸，既然是“福”
自然就躲不过呵呵呵

陪我们歌唱

2008-08-04T23:30:00.004+08:00

每一场精彩的演唱会都不会被忘记
我们的人生用演唱会来标记这年我们又去了哪里
看了哪几场演唱会接下来期待的是哪一场演唱会
就这样一场接着一场
维持着我们对生活的不多也不算少的热忱

在那个我们熟悉的熟称海鲜餐馆却一点都不华丽的地方
我们得到的总是远远超过补充体力的夜宵
感谢有这个地方，让我们知道我们相信的
一点都不虚幻，一点都不遥远，一点都不浪费。

感谢对这个地方从不厌倦的乐团，
因为我们知道你们没有理由也没有必要
连续五六年，连续三四晚吃同样的夜宵。

感谢那些明明真的很值得被人从远方崇拜
却真实真诚的象朋友一样的主唱，吉他手。
你们不只给了我们不一样的音乐，
还给了们不一样的人生。
虽然不是每个人都可以认同的人生，
可是却是我们向往，喜欢的人生。

话说回来，苏打的演唱会也太正了吧？
吴先生的谈吐真的跟他的歌声一样尸+吊
真是语不伤人死不休！听他讽刺前五排

如蜡人般闻风不动面无表情的赞助商真的习北爽！

“你们有心事吗？要不要说出来？分享一下会比较好哦”
还有“如果等一下我看见有谁拿出相机或手机拍照，

我发誓我以后再也不下台，还会当场没收然后把相机砸烂”
就凭着这点，老娘也千里迢迢浩浩荡荡
上前去警告这对一直很白地在拍照的情侣
实在是看不下去！话说我的样子真的有很凶哦！哈！

习惯了苏打的表演形式不只是演唱，而是“表演”
可是这样真的挺好的

因为听吴先生说话真的有跟听他唱歌一样精彩。
特别陶醉于“我只在乎你”，自弹自唱的“是我的海”
甚至是脍炙人口的“小情歌”。

吴先生在一片安静中唱出了第一句：
“天上风筝在天上飞~地上人儿在地上追~”
我也几乎感动的快升天了。这把歌声到底是怎样啊？
吴先生，请问你是天使吗？

吴先生有分享不完的趣事访问不完的弦乐老师
讲不完的冷笑话连决定安可歌曲的时间
都比唱出这些歌曲的时间还长。

这就是我很喜欢的苏打。
脱俗却不是高不可攀主唱三八得很有气质。

你们的音乐真是无与伦比的美丽。
你们的态度更是无与伦比的美丽。

五月天 x 7-11

2008-07-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

谁说半夜不能吃便当
谁说彩虹不能长头上

哇！哦苯将让我好喜欢！！

"OPEN!"

2008-07-24T11:51:00.004+08:00

人真的很贱的，尤其是我。
总在不顺遂或迷失的时候，
才会特别想念对自己无私付出过的人。
我当然为此感到无比的惭愧。
这就是人生，多努力，多释怀都不会完美。

我就只有这两只手，想要紧握自由，就放掉安定了。
我的两只脚丫子，踏出了探险的第一步时，
也同时离开了安全地带。
这就是人生。二选一是不变的条例。

摇滚乐旷野奔放，吵闹中唤起激情，
弹奏曲清幽平静，清淡却安抚人心。
而你只够钱买一张CD。

如果我必须说出一样自己过人的强项，
那一定就是想太多。

天窗开得正是时候！

2008-07-21T15:13:00.008+08:00

看来今天并没有想象中的糟糕。
眼睛是肿了一点，眼皮是重了一点可是天气却很完美哦！

我赖在床上跟好友聊着些有的没的
打开了窗，闻得到雨的味道听着"开天窗"

到底要我怎么相信五不是为了我们在写歌的
歌词，旋律，时机全部桥的刚刚好

哦苯将和他的朋友们让人看了无法再不开心


开天窗让人听了不尽自己跟自对傻笑起来
怎么三十来岁的人还这么发自内心的可爱乐观
我们这些三十不到的专长却是自怜自哀

OPEN x 五月天『開天窗』
詞：阿信曲：怪獸

一隻鯨魚要怎麼放進冰箱打開門然後用力關冰箱
然後呢如果你還想要放一隻大象
一份希望要怎麼放進心臟如果你活的有一點悲傷
答案是用力丟掉鯨魚用力甩悲傷

是誰說半夜不能吃便當是誰說彩虹不能長頭上
是誰說藍色就等於憂傷你看看天空和海洋

順風時就展開雙翅飛翔逆風時就當成在衝浪
沒有風的時候那就讓我開開天窗

一句歌詞怎麼讓你很難忘方文山林夕和我都在想
想破頭也鑽不進一個緊閉的心房
一個難題要用多少的智商多少淚還有多少的盼望
多少人變成緊閉門窗孤獨的國王

我是 open chan 快樂的一天跟你一起 OPEN！喔喔喔喔！
我是 open chan 快樂的一天彩虹長在頭上！喔喔喔喔！

这里抢先听“开天窗”

Books with dogs

2008-07-21T09:47:00.012+08:00

Bought this cute pictorial book because it was on sale at borders. I imagined I can use it to teach my kids about dogs species in future. Or it can just be a coffee table book to show guests that this family endorses dogs.

haha.

These are 2 dogs I love and they happened to be on opposite pages! Japanese Spitz and Samoyed. Samoyed is a big Christmasn dog that I wish to keep in the future. I have a thing for fluffy white dogs with pointed ears!

And here is MeiMei aka papilon. I think papillons live for a mission to stick their tongues out.

The one of the right is a puli. Her image makes me LOL. I remember seeing her sashay around in a pedigree competition some years ago. It was LOL because I wondered how she could see with that hair-do!

XQ, do you remember?

And this is for Daf. But luckily she will not see this or she may start tearing.

And I also want to recommend "Marley and Me" Please read it! Marley is marvellous!

It's silly but i teared while reading on the train, and then I had to keep the book for a while, wait for my tears to dry up, then start reading again until tears were at the brim of overflowing, then keep the book again. And so this process repeated itself throughout the journey.

LOL.

How do I get so much tears when I drink so little!

yoga moves

2008-07-18T00:18:00.011+08:00

Today we went to a polytechnic in the east after work. Maybe it is just our destiny that we will be exhausting our time, energy and sometimes money on leading what xq claims to be the fictitious part of our lives.
But we love to believe that is where we truely belong. haha....

Anyway, today is small case la.
Thanks to jj de jjj, who got the tickets to YG campus concert, though she was not able to attend.
So xq and I went, and went through all the waiting and queuing and cock-ups as usual.

We got a pretty close to the stage seat on the stairs despite being the last few to enter the auditorium. Experience counts!

Anyway, there was another performing artiste.
And the only reason why I want to mention her is because she really looks like 郑婉玲 from SG.
So close is the resemblence that xq gave me the permission to repeat "她真的很像郑婉玲" for 50 times. And here is the evidence.
Anyway, we think she is weird. There is just something wrong about her.

Back to YG, nutty YG in skinny pants so tight they looked like leggings to me.
We witnessed his heavy bottom live too...lol
And all his crazy speeches and motions.
He can never keep his butt in, has got to push it all the way out, be it walking or standing still to sing. He can never keep his body straight. Has to tilt or twist it at an angle, or walk with a half squat, etc etc etc....

See the angle?

But still, he's cute! Really cute!
Especially since he looked up and waved to us before he left. Us meaning xq and me, not the auditorium. Because we were alert and xq managed to let out a soft "yoga".

Experience counts!

So, YG is cute!
I don't think I need to say anything about his singing.
He was the first champion.

Lastly,
I am so so so happy that the Wenna five tigers' concert is this Saturday. I no longer have to hear on radio that they are the beatles of HK. It really is such a desperate attempt.

Sunday, ECP

2008-07-15T23:58:00.013+08:00

We brought the doggies to east coast park on sunday. It is slowly dawning on me that I desperately need some commitment and companionship in my life now.
Commitment towards a living thing to keep my
growing maternal instinct under control.
And a companion to give unconditional love.
Maybe I have been watching too many dog movies and reading too many dog books lately.
I wish Mochi had been allowed to stay, and allowed the chance to prove her worth which will be so much more than the hassles.
Dogs are a bundle of joy!

my first picture with mochi

MeiMei looking as silly as usual

Anyway, the 2 little terrors who darted around at home were completely changed dogs once they stepped out of the house.

To be precise, those paws of Meimei's never did once touch the ground, and it took us a close 15 min to even carry Mochi beyond the gate.

She wriggled and shook herself out of the leash, ran back into the house to hide under the bed, and clenched her nails into Eu's daddy's shoulders just to make sure she stays put in the house.
Like we were bringing her to the butcher.
We think she's got a screw loose somewhere.

Anway, the two bitches still do not get along well. Sibling rivalry, as we call it. So it's a rare scene that they did not growl at each other in the car. Maybe they unite when they sense what seems like danger to them.

Mochi threw up soon after this picture.
Maybe the ride was too long and bumpy for the pup.

Despite their agression towards each other, they do have many things in common. Both refused to budge once they were on the ground and our arms were really tired from carrying them. We looked at all the other doggies scurrying past us in excitement, and wondered just what had went wrong with our two.

We felt really silly being the only ones with the doggies in our arms.

The big embarrassment came when Mochi finally managed a bit of walking, and there came a little girl who tried to play with her. Only to see Mochi jerk backwards and retreated far far away.
The 2nd time the girl tried to get closer…Mochi shunned again.
The parents went “oohhh….doggie scared of you larh” And the owners went red with embarrassment.

Thereafter, she glued her ass on the groud right before this female novice roller blader, who could only attempt to stand still and wait for Mochi to leave.
After many tugs and persuasion, I had to scoop Mochi up and apologize.
We confirmed she's got a screw loose.

Outings with the dogs always ended with the owners succumbing to our tired arms and resting at a fast food restaurant. We are also so sure the doggies will enjoy sitting down eating beef patties more than anything else.

On our way home, the doggies slept soundly like they were the ones with the tired legs and arms.
Anyway, it was really enjoyable spending time with the doggies, and I think my arms will get more muscular if we all keep up with this.
We will be training Mochi on how to behave more normally outdoors, since she may weigh an 8-10kg now, and there is no way we can carry her as she grows.
And we will continue carrying Meimei since she is much lighter, and too old and odd to change.

the doggies regaining their true selves at home
mochi again
she dozed off soon after taking this picture

2008-07-08T00:53:00.004+08:00

“永遠等待那一日咱可以出頭天
人生不怕風浪只怕自己沒志氣”

反复听着这首歌。。。
鸡皮疙瘩怎么掉也掉不完
怎么搞的！
在我人生的每个阶段
都有一首五月天的歌
像是为我的人生量身定做一样

这些歌曲有太多成为了我们的主题曲
有太多为我们纪录着
每一次潮起每一个潮落

我忘了从什么时候开始
我的人生开始有了遗憾这回事儿
不是那种没办法出席演唱会
弥补的回的遗憾

是那种切切实实会让心揪起来的遗憾

我有很多话想跟人说
可是我真的说不出口
像是你肚子痛看医生时
医生问你哪里痛
你却无法清楚说明一样

Reformat

2008-06-23T22:34:00.005+08:00

I am at a lost with my laptop after reformatting.
Damned. I hate an empty laptop.

And now my ipod library is empty.
I do not know how to sync my ipod into the library.
It seems like it can only be done the other way round,
or I am just stupid.
The only way I know is to put all the songs into the
library again, and then sync my ipod again.
But I have deleted most of those MP3s which means
I need to rip them again. ONE BY ONE.
You know how many albums MD alone has.

And then there are those MD and photos files that
take up a lot of space, and I don't feel like having them
in my laptop anymore.
But then I do not trust myself to only have them
backed up in some CD-Rs because I know I will intentionally
place them somewhere which I find very safe
and 1 month later, it gets so safe that I cant
remember where they are.

And I have this bad feeling that maybe by the time
I finally put all the files back into the laptop,
something may just go wrong again.

I mean....with this so called technology,
you never know.

I hate to start anew with new laptops, new MP3s players,
new hps. And I mean, why is trading in and changing
hps the nation's hobby?
I can never bear to part with my old SMSes.

Anyway, just some ramblings, so nobody needs to understand.
The point is...I am very vexed facing my empty laptop now.

PLUS...

I lost all my old links...many trivial MD and xin related links
that are SO important to me. Damned.
I lost the link of the Alice's account of her interactions with
ashin when they were in school.
(Ji, do you have it? I also need the url of ashin's 1st blog)
And I am sure I lost many other important links that
I cannot remember now.

Don't ask me why I did not back up my links.

And again....I cannot stress enough that
I desperately need a new job!

赌懒

2008-06-20T22:12:00.004+08:00

第三天了。。。我觉得我快爆肝了
一天连续工作十三个小时，连续四天，赶五间店
除了坐计程车和吃饭以外，我根本没有机会坐下

有一些人以为我的工作很轻松
看见我拿着一件衣服在手上。。。就问我“来买衣服啊？”
我真想跟他塞两巴过去！
林北过去的一小时都在整理衣服。。。

今天还有人跟我说“享受你的周末假日”
不然就是如果在六点过后看见我，就会很惊讶的说：“你还没回家吗？”
回你的头啦。。。真是他妈的
是的！我一直都在！你没看见我不表示我没在做工
很多人认定自己是最辛苦的最勤快的
我他妈的想跟他们说，老娘有五个地点要去
甚至如果他们喊累，我说我也是
他们还会一幅“你怎么可能会累”的样子看着我
我真是他妈的赌懒。

别忘了我还必须承担销售成绩好坏的责任
你们根本只是在打混，等下班

我真的受够
我现在要回家了！
我讨厌我的工作
好的没人赞
只会为了小事跟我计较
就因为你们根本就在状况外
可是又偏爱装成一幅很厉害的样子
我讨厌你们！

goheadsky

2008-05-23T00:30:00.002+08:00

出頭天 /五月天

在我的天頂甘有人會看見
看到我不甘願這樣過一生

在我的一生我甘願來相信
每一朵花都有自己的春天

在我的天頂大雨落不停
也不能改變到我的固執

永遠等待那一日咱可以出頭天
人生不怕風浪只怕自己沒志氣

那一日咱可以出頭天
我盼望的日子會真快來到我身邊

在我的天頂甘有人在保佑
怎樣我常常摔的頭殼流血

血乾會結痂失敗也不失志
成功是咱自己看自己得起

飄浪的日子等待著時機我不信命運會這麼無情
永遠等待那一日咱可以出頭天

人生不怕風浪只怕自己沒志氣
那一日咱可以出頭天
我盼望的日子會真快來到我身邊

这首歌让我想起很久很久以前
那年青涩的五月天
陪伴着青涩的我们

去不完的台北

2008-05-21T14:27:00.002+08:00

旅行结束了。
相隔了快十六个月的时间
我再度正式了台北是个可爱的地方
至少对我来说

奇怪的是我虽然知道我们偏爱台北
是因为某些偏见与特殊原因
可是我真的很不喜欢听见人家说一些
“台北没什么” “台北不好玩” 之类的评语

很开心发现那些我们熟悉的摊位都还在
碳烤麻薯还在，阿忠面线还在，早餐店还在
连唐唐都还在同样那张小桌子上！
还有还有。。。连好乐迪提供的餐点都还一样捏！
唯一可惜的是这次定不到长虹饭店
只能每次走过就偷瞄看是不是还是一样的员工。

我还是有喝布丁奶茶，有吃豪大鸡扒，小番薯球，阿忠，碳烤。。。
还是有逛玫瑰唱，士林的小狗区，
还有那间街尾卖各式各样内搭小可爱，袜子，内裤，紧身裤的店
阿吉，我还有去我们那间我们住过一宿的漫画店
它也一点都没变！

我不知道对一个城市来说，“不便”算不算是没有进步
可是我知道就因这“不变” 让我每次回到台北
就好像回到另一个家一样很熟悉很温暖很安心

庆幸的感恩的知足的是：
我终于还是去朝圣了

三万人
三万人的汗水
很旧很旧的体育场
很臭很臭的流动厕所
很多很多兴奋的面孔
都等待着那第一个音符
让全场陷入疯狂

直射向夜空中的烟花
好像不用钱的火焰在舞台前不断的喷出来
没有人有空说话没有人有空喘气
台上的人和乐器主宰着台下的三万个心跳
这是一场最认真的派队
这就是最真实的梦境
（两只老鼠特别好听）

要特别感谢那位
最后还是纵容了我的疯狂
还借了肩膀让我助跳的人

台北我又回来了
台北我又离开了
再见！（see ya)

make music not war

2008-05-12T23:47:00.005+08:00

坐过山车的结果都是一样的
换来的只是霎那的紧张快感
一些喜悦和一堆害怕
到了终点松开安全带下车
终于结束了空虚吧？失望吧？

就期待这张吧。。。

120块当买个纪念品咯。
时时提醒自己知足知足知足！

是福是祸？

2008-05-11T21:41:00.001+08:00

经过一番调查:
从台北到台中，有两个选择：

1) 台铁
台北 13.24 --> 台中15.56 （2小时 24分钟）
台中 00.20 --> 台北 02.38 (2小时 18分钟）
来回车程共4 小时 42 分钟
票价未知（肯定比高铁便宜）

2）高铁
来回各约60分钟
来回车程共2小时
车票两人共 2800台币（比入门票还要贵！）

而且我都还不知道
从体育馆到太铁/高铁车站还需不需另要计程车？！

如果你不是歌迷，你愿意吗？

这到底是福还是祸呀？！

陪我歌唱

2008-05-07T20:59:00.005+08:00

苏打的第一张 live
从架子上拿下来时手微微颤抖着

这就是乐团的魅力。

矛盾

2008-05-07T10:44:00.006+08:00

真的很矛盾
教我知足的是你
叫我不知足的也是你

天上的星星会笑我

是旋转木马耶！

2008-05-07T00:13:00.004+08:00

旋转木马是童话的象征
好像只要骑上任何一匹色彩缤纷的马儿
旋转着旋转着
就保证可以找到幸福

可是就象在现实中
你即使真的碰上了旋转木马也不会想去坐一样
童话故事就是不会发生在现实生活里的

就把座位都留给孩子们吧！

ps. 我不是悲观而是客观

to my 4eva frenz...

2008-05-05T23:44:00.004+08:00

hey stelz gal...
Sorrie!
Happie belated Bdayz ya!
No hard feelings okie!
This is the only photo I took at your party.
Symbolises the consistency in our parties and our lives.
You stay cutez and happie (and healthy) horz..
*big hugz*

2008-05-04T02:38:00.014+08:00

没想到。。。我第一次上山的经验
竟然如此难忘难忘得让我下定决心
要是没有什么特别的原因的话
我想我应该不会再去了

我想连非常经常上山的阿莲（或任何赌徒）
应该都没一次过见识云顶的警察局和酒店诊所吧
我们刚好就有这份荣幸呗~

先看看我的最终下场吧：

接着再来回味坏事没发生前的快乐时光：

旅途中在永平休息，这次竟然没有人吃ramly汉堡
可能多多少少是因为我们很认真的看待
妞的"uncontrollably" 的忠告吧
（妞，这算是你的预言吗？可真灵的说！）

第一个状况就在永平后发生了：

正当我安心的听着ipod，慢慢进入熟睡状态时
我脑海中忽然浮现了一个画面：
我昨晚在收拾行李时小心翼翼的把五演唱会的门票
整齐的放入包包的一个口袋的画面
这画面有什么不对经呀？
因为我后来很假厉害加多余的又换了一个包包
所有东西都转进了新包包,
就只除了那张安静的整齐的躺在口袋里的票！
（此刻晴天霹雳，额头上冒出三条很粗的黑线
顺便再飞过了一只乌鸦。。。瓜瓜瓜瓜~）

说真的，内行人都应该知道
这是犹如出国没带护照一样程度的罪行
是应该马上被拖下车暂头的

妞：joey, 你长大了，你竟然没因此而大哭一场!
我：因为我现在知道，有钱有卡在手，
就能解决一切的问题（得意）
妞：对啊，钱可以解决的问题，都不算是问题！

就这样。。。巴士上又恢复了宁静
我们继续上山。
在酒店内。。。一切依然顺利。。。

待续。。。我累了。。。

那女孩

2008-05-04T02:01:00.003+08:00

“要不是那個女孩，我不能任性活在音樂裡，那是支持著我的妳。
要不是那個女孩，我不會懂得想念，那是等待的她。”

嘿~
我知道这个女孩是谁。
她是那个幸福的女孩。

4月26日

2008-05-04T02:00:00.000+08:00

七天后约好的
我们将是第一批被送回来的

准备好。。。回到地球表面
准备好。。。迎接地球的拥挤
准备好。。。面对丑陋的地球人

准备好。。。容忍地球人身上难闻的异味！

4月19日

2008-05-04T01:50:00.008+08:00

这是最后的机会了
最后一次带我们离开

所以我们按照约定
跑上了很高很高的地方等待

赶快伸出手
我们马上就要离开地球的表面

生活

2008-04-29T00:34:00.008+08:00

这座似乎觉得自己很了不起的小城市
总是不断的不断的不断的不断的
用着它的方式让人对它感到厌倦
一天又一天一次又一次的考验着我们的耐力
我想点一首“抓狂”献给它
但我猜它会跟我说：不爽随时可以滚蛋！
因为它知道城市里长大的小孩根本无别处可逃
我可以认同它的嚣张

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

是丑陋的人繁殖的越来越快
还是我的心胸越来越狭窄
就算我关得住我的嘴巴
也管不住我心里脑里对他们的控诉与批判
有时我的邪恶会让我感到不安
因为我清楚的知道现世报的存在和可以发生的速度
可是它像是与生俱来的
虽然不安可我也不想抵抗
这人怎么这么烦这人怎么这么臭
这人明明有口臭为什么不闭嘴
这人怎么这么不注重自己的清洁与外表
这人干嘛要在演唱会前把自己喝醉
既然喝醉了干嘛不滚开还来这里烦人
这人干嘛一幅觉得自己很美的样子
这些人说的话很没有内涵男人说这么多话搞屁
这类型的想法常常都在我脑里来回打转着
当然如果身边有志同道合的朋友让我骂出来
会痛快很多！
我的邪恶似乎与生俱来

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

不是有很多励志/教育性的读物
都喜欢用一句名言
"the only constant in life is change" 吗？

后来我终于找我生命里我自己的版本了
“the only constant in life is MayDay”

回顾这近十年的时光
身份变了，男友换了，样子变了，思想换了
米饭现在是贵重的东西
新加坡也有恐怖分子越狱了
连北极的冰床都因温室效应溶化了一大块

唯一不变的只有 mayday x me
只有他们每一次带来的生命力

唯一不变的
是随时戴上耳机不管几点钟在世界的哪个角落
他们就马上和我一起
我可以暂时任性的置身“世”外

唯一不变的
是那些歌曲的前奏一响起
我又好像可以回到那个总是躲在宿舍里
看着听着五，生命中最大的梦想
是到台湾看一场五月天演唱会的穷学生

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

这拥挤的城市
这疯狂的世界
这 x x 的我

A touch of Taiwan

2008-04-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

Eugene and Joey are strong advocates of
KOI bubble tea at Parkway neighbourhood!

And KOI is 100% taiwanese!
All the staff are taiwanese!
You cannot go wrong with their talking style.
They even have Taiwanese friends sitting around.
Making order here makes me feel like 西门町！

Eugene and Joey loves Oolong ice pearl milk tea,
with 70% sugar level!
But we think we can try for 50% the next time!

It's just...DIFFERENT!
and in our words, 习北好喝！

标准宠物

2008-04-11T01:22:00.003+08:00

小若喜除了有口臭(和怀疑耳聋）之外
根本就是一个标准的宠物

轻巧，温驯，可爱。
用着电脑，把她抱在大腿上
她就乖乖的一时靠着你一时趴着望着你
口臭算得了什么！

永远买不完的面膜

2008-04-11T01:09:00.002+08:00

我敢斗胆的说，这是我这辈子用过最好的面膜
以开架式的保养品来说，它的确小贵了一点点
可是！和百货公司的国际品牌比起来
它算便宜的咯！
功效绝对比国际品牌一片二十块钱的面膜来的好！

反正就是货真价实的产品！

这面膜真的很贴脸。
在这之前，那些其他的面膜钻研师都在干吗？！

屈臣氏现在有优惠，第二片半价哦！
赶快去抢购！

妈妈~生日快乐！

2008-04-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

妈妈。。。
我爱你！
妈妈是我妈妈
就是我生命中最美好的事。

在外婆家和大家一起切蛋糕
开心的勒~

这张照片里的颜色好协调哦~

有“点”万事足

2008-03-27T22:56:00.004+08:00

我终于完成julia的红包箱了！
如果再多几个朋友结婚
我大概就做出一整个婚礼所需杂物配套了！

从这个：

变成这个：

我自己好喜欢哦！
反正啊~ 对我而言
点点 + 蕾丝 + 蝴蝶结 = 成功的秘诀
错不了的啦~ 呵呵呵

我在想，有没有可能从这些婚礼杂物赚钱
可是后来想想。。。我的本钱太高了啦!
应该很困难！哈哈~

按着什么心

2008-03-24T23:57:00.004+08:00

最近有位新上任的大人物
第一堂课就教所有人要有五颗“心”
我本来还以为能得到什么启发的

他列出的五颗心是：
1）专心 - 专业的心
2）信心
3）受苦的心
4）更改的心
5）爱心

嗯。。。没啥意见。
因为清楚他的为人所以一切显得很虚伪

上个礼拜四早上竟然被通知有“新规定”
每天早上要走向前到每位大人物面前“请安”
哇叻~！这是什么年代什么场所啊？幼儿班吗？

今天！这位大人物竟然“反应”
怎么有个部门的职员没这么做
（事实上他们有，只是不够刻意加做作)

很挫嘞！

我想教他做人加多两个心

平常心和怜悯之心

领袖真的很重要
我全身都不舒服

复出

2008-03-23T17:45:00.000+08:00

嘿。。。
嘿嘿嘿。。。
最dear的朋友们。

我回来了。
从哪里啊？
不知道。。。
从一个有许多忙碌疲累懒惰的都市人的地方。

原来这生活这把年纪的体力这每天的二十四小时
不够我兼顾家人朋友工作恋爱宠物健康自己和偶像
更不用说部落格

我最近真的很糟糕
每天就这样忙忙碌碌过着东奔西跑
隔天就忘了昨天发生过做过的事情
简讯响了先按掉过后就忘了读
读了手机一放下就忘了是谁在跟我说什么事

还有那天我明明跟同事约了牛车水捷运站
然后搭到欧南园下车走向NEL月台地区就以为我到牛车水站了！
还在心里偷偷埋怨特地跑去牛车水捷运站等我的同事
干吗要安排在这么乱的地方
害我竟然在我熟悉的牛车水一带迷路
根本我们都在两个不同的捷运站！
我还向他坚持我在牛车水站！我是大白痴啊！

真的整个人每天不知道活在什么状况里

可以坦白告诉大家一个星期内
我至少有两天没冲凉没卸装就睡觉了
其他的五天即使冲了凉都有三天没用保养品
妈的真是自残！堕落！

所以!
我!
下了决心
从今天起要从新继续部落格
过更在状况内的生活！

尽量啦~
呵呵

PS:JJJ加油！我们都挺你！
不挺蓝不挺绿只挺吉!

新狗狗

2008-03-23T17:25:00.001+08:00

她是新狗狗 mochi。。。
新狗狗和资深狗狗一个月过了还是敌视对方
狗狗界的政治斗争我们人类束手无策

新娘最美丽！

2008-03-22T17:54:00.003+08:00

我好喜欢这张照片这样排放在钢琴上

新娘子真的就是会很漂亮啊！

就是漂亮嘛！简简单单的就很漂亮！

四人的大合照。

(左手边的女生割不掉！哈)

这是我的心血哦。。。

虽然在婚礼当天前我被一些比较适合当迎新会策划的人
搞得的有点厌烦但多亏主的多多保佑
婚礼还是甜蜜感人的进行了

虽然又忙又累可是我真的很感动
我一整天下来也偷偷的感动得含了几次泪落了几次泪
哈哈。。。可是要很低调
毕竟人家新人自己没哭他们爸妈没哭
我在哪儿感性个什么嘛哈哈
嗨反正我爱哭是在骨子里的每办法

安妮为。。。
达芙妮，真的很为你开心啦！

呸呸呸！

2008-01-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

这世界到底是怎样！
是我越来越倒霉，还是世上的恶人越来越多
怎么都这样他妈的不讲理~
真是一个个王八蛋！
不吐不快

犹豫是一种病。
情绪不稳定是一种病。
缺乏安全感是一种病。
我想我有病。

我已经发现了
这个社会惩罚随和善良的人
我可以给你盖个章确认这点
老娘就是经过多次临床证明的陈样本
你当人家是朋友人家把你当屁
你对人家好别以为他们会领情
可是我永远学不会凶狠不够不屑
虽然我现在真的很想变恶人

鼠年来转个运吧
最近小人四面埋伏
真是防不胜防！

2008-01-29T00:06:00.000+08:00

She just woke up from her nap.
She made her own way up to the ledge
and snuggled behind the pillow to sleep.
So cute!

That's the close up.
No! she is not acting Edison Chan.
There is just not enough mouth space to keep
her long tongue. So cute,Roxy is a gremlin!

Barcelona winter time

2008-01-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

I really enjoyed Barcelona a lot more this time.
Maybe it was the company
Or maybe it was just the weather.

I wonder how the climate can change
the look of the city entirely.
It turned the place into a hue of brown all around.
Winter is such a great season!
I love the bald trees with the old and neat buildings.
Really, why is the landscape planning SO NEAT!
It was so neat my colleague told me
it's impossible to lose our way
because there is no blockage at all.
BUT...we still lost our way. ha.
in fact, i never really remembered the routes.
I just followed. I am such a parasite.

I think anything is nice agaist the bald trees!
It is lomantic.
My colleague and I came to the conclusion that
couples can never ever fight in such a weather.
You will be in such a damn bloody good mood, really!
And you will like to hold hands a lot.

The tapas are ever so farking good!
I love asparagas and grilled green peppers!
I love veal sirloin, and I love grilled squids.
I love everything!
They make me want to drink lots of beer.

And, I found a shop call MAYDAY. ha~

One of the nights we went to this supposedly
very high class Thai restaurant for dinner and
a bowl of "white fragrant jasmine rice that goes
with anything" (as listed in the menu) was a
whopping 4eur. My god! I was grumbling the
whole night though we did not have to pay!

I can buy 5kg of white fragrant jasmine rice with 4 eur!
And so that's the trip.

But I must say it was really hot indoors and I hated that!
And shopping and trying on clothes
is such a hassle in winter time.

告别冬天

2008-01-14T00:12:00.001+08:00

只是最近才对2007有一些感触
这阵子脑袋是空空的
只忙于当下的事，只顾得下一秒的事

几天前，忽然有点小领悟
2007可能是至今最辛苦的一年
有说出了口的有始终说不出口的

现在回想
我领悟最深的是
不要害怕别人误会你
有一天，他们真的会知错的

不要害怕别人不喜欢你
要让所有的人喜欢
是件最累最蠢又最不可能的事

总而言之
一切就让时间证明
一切就让时间冲淡
这道理真不是盖的

时过境迁后你回头看
发现没什么是时间无法带走的

除了怨恨
只要稍微的松懈
它就会在你心里慢慢滋长
你越努力掩盖越努力忽略
它就会乘机越放肆的滋长
可是我始终无法面对
可是时间始终对它没有奏效
可恶的怨恨

开心的事当然有很多
看见高佬逐渐健康我好感激
遇见在最无意间遇见的你我很感激
大家都好好的我很感激

就这样
我们又多认识多相伴了一年

生命还是很美好的不是吗？

碎碎念

2008-01-03T00:45:00.000+08:00

这是个恶性循环我不知道怎么样跟你讲不安累计变成太敏感太敏感再继续搅和不安我小心翼翼我招惹反感我不断让泪水决堤我招惹反感我亲手谋杀我的自信我招惹反感我本来就没有你会说话我本来就没有你会表达我本来就泪腺发达我本来就不会骂粗话我本来就不外向我本来开朗乐观我拿手自怜自哎吗还是我习惯无病呻吟吧又或者是我没有自己的人生还是我太善于放纵自己的想象是我是我是我都是我那你呢我最亲爱的你呢

joey。爱。圣诞（3）

2007-12-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

高家的派队！
哈哈~ 主人精心布置的。他真的很用心哦！

我们是帮手！（我是指定摄影师~）
在客人还没来之前赶快先拍自己！

客人都得在手上盖个印章（strawberry shortcake的）
喝杯小酒，拍张照片。
我有被发现是衣橱酒鬼哦。
因为没客人的时候自己一直偷喝。哈哈

亲爱的主人跑去幽会了！两个小时候才回来！

我这里啊，只有几张可怜的照片
其他的都在主人的指定相机里
kun janine,你等着！那些有你的都在LS相机里~

大合照（我都跟你说他肥了吧?哈哈）

有没有发现我的裤子变了？
因为我倒掉红酒了！沾到裤子上。
这里穿的是二姐的啦！她给我的第一件裤子我竟然扣不上！
因为她拿了生产前的给我，她说：“我以为你很瘦的！”
哈哈！二姐，你错了啦！真糗！
后来我又倒掉香宾！！真是的~！

这个家和所有的家人都有种很熟悉的感觉
高妈妈，大姐，二姐，二姐夫，小侄子，都很熟悉

开心的是，和以前不同的是，
大家脸上都不是那试着掩盖担心的笑容
而是真正开心，安心得笑容
他们都好爱LS哦！
我们也是。

LS，我祝你身体健康！

joey。爱。圣诞（2）

2007-12-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

礼拜天在黄家的圣诞派对！

礼物区
不是，我们没有一个客人叫 JAS 的！
那是 joey, ah ji 和 stella 的礼物！

很多很大碗的意大利面！

开动了！

对镜头永远很敏感的积极吉！
加难得不用宣传的小美（啊~~新造型瀑光！）

当然要来个大合照！
tsj/mdc 不负众望的都有招牌手势。哈哈

妞赞助的树桐蛋糕
圣诞节派对一定要有的啦！

joey。爱。圣诞（1）

2007-12-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

耳垂上有雪片哦！

朋友们的礼物。我喜欢凡是有格子的东西！

麋鹿的包装纸
（你不要再吃了！！）

我的礼物！又有雪片勒~

给彭少的。

在胡说

2007-12-24T01:48:00.000+08:00

我有慢慢在滋长的不安全感
是我太过敏锐还是你太过松懈

每分钟每个角落都有两个人分了手
在同一秒钟也有两个人第一次牵起了手
这是不变的定律，循环着。。。循环着。。。
我们要认命我们要珍惜
失去过的人要珍惜
不曾拥有过的人也要珍惜
不计后果不计收获的奉献纵容
像一片海洋像一个母亲

我每次听见有谁和谁分了手
就会想象他们刚在一起时一定就像我们一样坚定
然后中间发生了什么事情？

这年头情歌泛滥
听了这么多大家进步了没有？

我会努力的
喜欢一个人是一种学习过程

认真得很可爱

2007-12-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

忙完了！圣诞节也到了！

2007-12-18T10:50:00.000+08:00

哇！好久没来这里了！
前阵子真的太忙了。
一下子开新铺的，一下子超级大减价的
我都快爆肝了!!
可是如果可以爆瘦会更好。（可惜没有！）

然后真的是一眨眼！
在我还来不及离开之前
又在安排巴塞罗那的行程了。
这次看来又得跟烦人的某某老板一起飞了
真的很闷！！

其实现在我慢慢发现
原来我没这么讨厌这份工作了
这反而令我更担心
一旦不够讨厌，离开的决心也就大大减少
一旦不够讨厌，就会更在意就会更想把它做得更好
就会对更多事情和更多人的工作态度不满
最后就会把自己搞得更累更讨人厌

嗨呀！

现在圣诞节这么近了
我只想好好的放个假逛个街
开些节目表永远不变（或者说没有节目表）的小派对

预祝大家圣诞节快乐！
好好享受一下这冷天气吧！

我今天实在没心情没干劲儿做任何事!!!

2007-11-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

我始终（还）没电我的头发

M.O.: *惊讶* 你要电头发？！
*退后三步*？电发至少要四个小时耶！

无望：。。。。。。

M.O.:改天再来电吧。。。那今天要干嘛？

无望：。。。。。。

无望：可是今天不处理头发的话，我走不出去了。
头发太恶心了。

无法度。。。就剪就好啦。

哈~可是我有暗自松了一口气。
因为我其实也还没对电发下百分百的决心
所以现在也好，留到两个月后再重头想过吧!

在这样考虑下去，我可以一辈子都直发了。
哈哈哈哈。。。
procrastinator 可不是白当的。

赶快被闷死吧。。。

PS: 吓死人不偿命的黑眼圈

看！也可以这么长哦。
有没有很多变？哈哈~

PS: 大便时拍的。很想扁我对吧？
我有把它传给正在曼谷逍遥的彭先生。
证明我大便时也有想他。

我爱专业人士

2007-11-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

我妈妈真的是个很用心的家庭主妇。
连狗狗的位置都马虎不得。
她好专业。我好爱她。

2007-11-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

哎呀！谁咬了吉蒂猫一口啊？
好可怜哦。。。

也许是妞吧。

无与伦比的美丽

2007-11-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

买到期待很久的专辑真是叫人既兴奋又开心
甚至令我对明天上班的路途有点小期待

小宇宙。。。我今天竟然买了第三张！
买第二张是因为我不小心弄坏了第一张的封套
买第三张是因为附送“迟到千年”的单曲
可能圣诞节会有人从我手中受到“小宇宙”耶！
哈~ 先乱放个话

音乐的力量真的很大。

我们都爱圣诞节~！

2007-11-06T22:23:00.000+08:00

耶！！我听见圣诞老人的脚步声咯。
（还有他的招牌笑声：吼吼吼）

战利品

2007-11-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

从那间分行遍布全岛的卡拉ok墙壁上硬生生拉下的

2007-10-31T23:33:00.000+08:00

当你无法断定
我到底喜欢小碎花多一点
还是点点多一点的时候

s a t u r d a y

2007-10-20T14:18:00.000+08:00

好一个不用上班的礼拜六
这四年半内有 4.5 x 52 个应该必须是慵懒的礼拜六
我到底错过了几个？
我又在无声兼有声的埋怨中浪费了几个？

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有时自闭得想一直躲在任何一个没有异味的厕所里
但慢慢的我发现
连这唯一一个我以为容得下我的小小空间
都有个权威性极大的统治者
随时可以把你驱逐出境的清洁aunty

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怎样才能让周末比周日长
怎样才能把时间均匀的分配给自己和所有我爱的人
怎样控制我的种种欲望
怎样可以出席我所有想看的演唱会
怎样可以阻止民众穿很难看的鞋子
怎样吃才不会胖
怎样睡才不会在捷运上睡倒在隔壁搭客的肩膀

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好一个不用上班无聊的礼拜六

2007-10-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

The principal is a friend and a foe
The other franchisee is a friend and a foe
The staff are subordinates yet I work for them
The boss does not care but is dying to impress
The new co-worker is either deaf or dumb
The brand manager dreads her job but she will not leave
I hate complicated relationships.
I hate contradictions.

oh my god.
And I am on ebay again
I hate temptations
I am obsessed
I am addicted to buying
I need to save
Did I just say I hate contradictions?

可怕的工作

2007-10-15T00:49:00.000+08:00

最近，工作让人窒息。
我有工作恐惧症，我有工作忧郁症
上班唯一的目的就是过完上班的时间

我也不想老是往坏的方面想
可是我真的慢慢的发现我实在不适合

我没有任何控制人的欲望
我没有任何命令人的架势
我没有向对我有利益的人刻意讨好的天份
我更不会处心积虑，不择手段，做表面功夫

即使做得到，也必定把自己搞得很不开心
就算我无能吧或则懦弱
因为我的快乐真的比工作表现重要
可能够清楚地了解这一点也算是重成就了

是啊，这是我要的嘛
我知道我必须自己承担这个决定
所以，我到现在都还没逃走

其实有一部分也是因为
在等着看我失败或离开的人太多了
即使我并不是那么在意他们的看法与批判
但还是有一部分不服输的我
想继续逞下去

而且现在确确实实也不是离开的时候

但我已经答应我自己，明年
明年我一定会走的

因为我必须为爱而生
我不能每天每天为讨厌工作而生
我的二十出头的青春块耗尽了。

可拉碧

2007-10-03T01:11:00.000+08:00

到了这里没有拍到任何海滩的照片
似乎有点说不过去可就是没有嘛！哈~

好友的邻居。。。他们家有养牛哦！

爱国的我

爱国且很不想被晒黑的我

刚好和我相反的人
我看你还是死了这条心吧！

我们光顾了两晚的路边牛肉丸小店

西尔顿的客房

单单是这张床啊就让人想一直赖着不外出了
再加上雨一直下。。。

忘了和我们探访的人合照了！妈的
嗨~ 话说回来因为带错了手机充电器
所以啊。。。第一天后就没能照相了！

释怀（2）

2007-09-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

今天，又被往事伤害了一遍
离开了的人离开前在我的背后捅的那把牛扒刀
今天伤口终于溢出了血迹

今天，终于知道那巫婆当时在我后面如后中伤我了
虽然一直怀疑但今天终于知道中伤我的详细内容

原来，她和外人说：
“她呀，年纪轻轻，是总裁的最爱，
所以，要求什么就得到什么，反正现在没我的事了
你们就等着看她怎么处理（凸槌）吧”
后来临走前还跟我的助手说：“你在她的管理下，保重了”

现在终于明白为什么起初人人对我都抱着敌意
如果它可以向外人说这番话
我开始想像她跟果园里的人说得多么难听！

奇怪。我唯一不明白的是，我那里惹到她了？哪里？
我讨厌对人抱着善意却被他们以恶意回报。

于是，当时。。。
我受伤了一下努力掩饰了我的在意一下
难过了一下没了自信一下想哭了一下
想不如离开了一了百了一下

我想象这些人当时如何看我现在又如何看我
人的嘴巴是很犀利的人的第一映像是可以很持久的

我有点累了。

然后我回神了一下思考了一下
理智了一下乐观了一下

妈的！这些人到底是我的谁呀！
他们在我生活里到底有多重要啊？
不过是路人甲乙丙丁嘛
老娘干吗为了你们这些会有报应的人不开心啊？

然后我又释怀了然后我又健忘了
我感谢我娘就是把我生得
好事记得久坏事记得丢

然后我就记得青峰说：
“朋友问我为何别人伤害你你一点也不伤心
我回答他我知道自己很好，我知道我是一个很好的人
既然我是一个这么好的人
为什么要为了伤害我的人伤心呢
是他应该伤心才对因为他做了这样的事
他如果有一天了解了一定会很后悔的
我只是准备好了等待他发现的那一天原谅他
这些人，有一天你们会知道
你们有多遗憾”

说得真好！
那。。。我就等着你们喽
你们啊。。。到时可别太愧疚了，伤身的呢！

2007-09-19T00:54:00.000+08:00

我喜欢这张相片
就当成是三分之一周年的纪念
你说这样算不吉利（不管！）

最近喜欢的一句歌词
“未来真的很长”

释怀

2007-09-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

今天，我眼眶红了
因为一瞬间遭受到了“好人没好报”的狠狠一击

妈的！那个白目妹！
我全心全意的对她好竟然做出这种白目到家的害人事
还敢跟我大小声

妈的！人事部那些爱装腔作势的米虫
自己失职还敢把责任推到我头上来！混账！
我看见电邮后真的是一把火直接烧到头顶上去

可恨的是，我总是在这种时候忍不住自怜掉下眼泪
我真的应该学习用更实际的方法面对委屈

在同一天内发现我释怀了
我就是这样大喜大悲好在我这个人健忘

这个世界就是这样
有些人就是这样
我就是这样

我们都用着自己的方式
每天面对着应付着这世界的不完美
我们都是自己世界里的勇士

不管有没有好报
我们都要继续做好人

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今天小若喜剪完头发后，哭了
我把她紧紧地贴在我胸口
小若喜真是惹人疼啊
以后，我也想要养一只自己的小狗！

secret

2007-09-13T19:03:00.000+08:00

我又看了“秘密”一遍
电影里的画面真的很美丽

校园里的旧琴房肩拼着肩四手联弹
教室外的长廊阳光下的操场

夕阳下海景旁两个人的身影逆着光
骑脚踏车逛唱片行

情节里有微微的复古香甜蜜中带着淡淡的酸
浪漫又唯美
故事很虚幻但情感却无比真挚
起初看似一般的爱情故事
中间的转折却让我起了满身的鸡皮疙瘩

叶湘伦回到 1979 年（鸡皮疙瘩~鸡皮疙瘩~）

我又偷偷着迷了一遍

新成员！！

2007-09-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

树曰

2007-09-06T15:25:00.000+08:00

昨天晚上，LS 的简讯这么写着：
"It's love that keeps us alive today"
嗯！我喜欢这样的说法

因为信仔也说了：
“只因我为爱而生。。。只因为我为爱而生~”

就因为是从一个曾经和死神搏斗过的人口中说出
所以我便特别相信了

今天斗胆第一次在办公室里部落格
看见我身后那门槛吗？是总裁办公室
以角度和距离来说他应该从房内就看得见我的银幕
可能我是真的做得不耐烦了吧？

最近办公室冷得像冬天来临了一样
穿着和同事借来的绒毛白色外套上面有雪片
做工心情也进步少许
就算是少许我也要。
因为最近是真的做得很不耐烦！